Ups and Downs
The last couple of days have been pretty erratic for me.
I was awkwardly uninvited to a trip with some of my friends (a subgroup of my friends in my new town…I’ll refer to them has NTF from now on…though now I’m thinking I should look that up on urban dictionary to be sure it doesn’t stand for something else….naw too lazy for that right now and this sidebar commentary is rambling way too long….hi). So that hurt my feelings, ego, whatever and I’ve spent the last couple days trying not to feel that way and pretend that I don’t care enough to make it so.
Then yesterday was just full of hysterical laughter with different friends from work. That night I felt amazing and confidence was high.
Now I’m home (recovering) and feeling lonely. Thinking about those NTFs wondering why they might not like me, then reminding myself that I don’t care. Thinking about that guy…and wondering why he can’t feel the same way, then reminding myself that that’s pathetic and to stop caring. Trying to remind myself of all of the good things in my life to be happy about and how the bad pales in comparison.
I need a distraction….oh hello tumblr :).